April 30, 2014

“Not in entire forgetfulness, And not in utter nakedness, But trailing clouds of glory do we come

From God, who is our home.” 

                                                               - William Wordsworth

“I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills 
When all at once I saw a crowd 
A host of golden daffodils 
Beside the lake beneath the trees Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.” 
― William Wordsworth, 

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My grandfather died on April 30, 2013.           

Today is April 30, 2014.

In celebration of Papa's life, 

In Loving Memory of 

James H. Cox... 

Jimmy...

Jim...

Papa...

Papa Jim...

Poppo...

my grandfather...

my Papa...

I took pictures today.

I put them here...

for those who hurt with me...

for anyone who is having trouble finding the good things about today...
the day that marks a year after loss...

go outside...

like Papa always did...
that's where the pretties are...

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“Because God is never cruel, there is a reason for all things. We must know the pain of loss; because if we never knew it, we would have no compassion for others, and we would become monsters of self-regard, creatures of unalloyed self-interest. The terrible pain of loss teaches humility to our prideful kind, has the power to soften uncaring hearts, to make a better person of a good one.” 

― Dean Koontz, The Darkest Evening of the Year

“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you 

learn to dance with the limp.” 

- Anne Lammot

I've seen a lot of quotes. 

I can relate to this one best...

because- 

for me, 

it's true...

You never 'get over the loss'...

Your heart stays broken...

Your wound will always be there. 

Your aching- 

That-

MISSING THEM...

It doesn't go away. 

EVER. 

But, 

The part about 

'making it'...

You will. 

It has been one year since I got the call- 

It's the call you hope you never get- 

You know...

Somehow, before you answer that call...

You just...

know.

What you don't know - 

is how

MUCH

losing

that person

will change your life. 

What you don't know- 

is how 

MUCH

you will hurt...

Time will not heal your pain. 

You will not heal. 

EVER...

But, 

you WILL...

as the author above puts it...

learn to 'walk with the limp'.